Friday, October 30, 2009

A bad place.

Recently my children (the big ones) have been testing me like nothing else. I imagine that the stress of moving etc isn't helping. But they are just being so rude & disrespectful towards me, and their constant fighting with each other has me feeling dislike towards them. I hate it!! They are beautiful children, they are. And I do love them pieces!! But at the moment I just dont like them. Does that make any sense? Probably not. I am just a bad mum who isn't enjoying parenthood at the moment.
I want to enjoy them.... I dont want to be grumpy at them all the time. They will grow up too soon....

:-(

8 comments:

Micky - Handmade Expo said...

I absolutely 100% completely relate and it definitely doesn't make you a bad mum... otherwise I would be a bad mum too... I am sure you are doing a fabulous job and my kids also push my buttons and it drives me NUTS!

Micky
xxoo

Scurrette said...

It isn't just you. Goodness I swing from liking Aphid #1 to Aphid #2 all the time. I don't seem to be able to have them both in my good graces simultaneously.

Sometimes their only reedeeming feature is that they are so darn cute!

I'll bet its just the unfamiliar right now that is putting the biggest strain on things. *hugs*

Givinya De Elba said...

Oh babe :( It's so hard. So much stress and change.

Look what I read the other day - it's been in my mind ever since:

"A child needs your love more when he deserves it least." Erma Bombeck.

Sometimes when they are so naughty they deserve all the smacks in the world, I just pick them up and give them a cuddle and tell them I love them.

It feels wrong.

Then it starts feeling so, so right.

Femina said...

You're a GOOD mum who is stressed and tired, and who has children who are exhibiting ratty behaviour that would test anyone, let alone the person who has to put up with it day after day.

Did you miss the first bit of my comment? You're a GOOD MUM. (Wait - what kind of mum? Oh right... the GOOD kind...)

Polka Dot Daze said...

Oh yes that makes perfect sense. My youngest son has been the baby from hell, and when I would tell people I love him, but don't like him, they just didn't get it. This horrible phase your kids are in will pass, as all phases do. Good luck!

Crazy Sister said...

Hang in there! I bet they're better already by the time you read this comment...

Kate said...

This is my first visit to your blog and I have no idea if there is any history to this discussion but I do feel very strongly that this feeling is totally normal. Our kids know us so well. They feel what we are feeling and react. They also know better than anyone how to get a reaction and push our buttons. You also have a tiny baby which is exhausting at the best of times. Your bigger two are learning to share you and find their new place. Hang in there, like the above comment said, i'm sure by the time you read this it will have all shifted and looking better.

Trace said...

just letting you know that your not alone ...

xoxo