In 10 months Swift Jim and I will be celebrating 10 years of marriage.
The thought of that is overwhelming me. Not because I don't want to be married for that long. No. I am excited about that bit! What is overwhelming me is the thought of looking like this for that occasion.....
See after we got married, I got fat. I had always told myself that I would lose it all before our 10th Anniversary. Because not only are we 10 next year but I am 30 next year. I have spent my WHOLE 20's feeling awkward and embarrased about my size. I don't really want to feel like that for my 30's and beyond...
Ten months isn't long. To lose 30kg's in 10 months, that's overwhelming!!!!
Weight Watchers, Jenny Craig, Lite and Easy, Tony Fergusen, The Biggest Loser Club, Calorie King, Boot Camp......... ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
Why did I have to get fat!? Being skinny was SO much better.....
7 comments:
Have you had your thyroid levels checked? I wonder if that is part of it?
Whatever you decide, I will support you 100%
I'm with you too babe. For me, skinny equalled panic attacks, and I always told myself oin those horrible 20 years I'd prefer being fat & happy. Here I am, and the fat is not-so-good, but the happy is good. Do you think we could all be skinny and happy?
Do get help and support ... going it alone is so hard. It's not working for me, anyway. I'm about to stop breastfeeding, too. Something tells me that's not going to be good for my weight.
Ask your GP what sort of approach they think is good - I'd be interested to hear!
I totally understand. But I was never "skinny". I did however get fatter. If you want support, let me know. I am currantly back doing the betty baxter programe. John did really well with it so far, and I have lost about 8kgs so far. Only another 30 or more to go.
So if you want to start walking or something like that let me know.
whats betty baxter like - anything like Tony Ferguson - I lost with that one - but then I wanted to eat real food including the forbidden sandwich.
You can do anything you put your mind to Becky...I second getting the thyroid checked too...pregnancy can play havoc with it.
Have you got a plan for the 10th Anniversary and big 30 birthday...something for you to look forward to?
Firstly, congrats on nearing such a wonderful milestone! Secondly, it makes me sad to know this is how you feel about yourself. You know though, 10 months IS a good chunk of time. I don't think it's a matter of forcing yourself to think positively. Is sounds like you need some educated support so you always know you're on the right track. A dietician or an assessment at the gym as scary as that may sound? If you start now, you won't keep beating yourself up as time goes on. Could you go for 'healthy' as opposed to 'skinny'? Maybe your perception is worse than reality? I'm sending you good goal-achievement vibes, however you decide to get there. xxx Kim
Aww Beck.... you would not have those 3 beautiful babes though if you were still what you were, blame it all on the kids i say!!!!!
No seriouly turning 30 is really hard.... we all have a pre-conceived idea about who we were going to be and what we would be doing at that age! Don't beat yourself up too much you are a awesome person set your self some goals and take it day by day you will get where you want to be....
xoxoxoxox
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