I have made a decision about my body.
This video helped me decide...
I don't want to be continually worrying about my weight and feeling like a complete failure constantly because I don't have the will power to stick to a diet or whatever. I am trying to come to peace with who I am and what I look like.
I see my "skinny" friends and I see what it takes for them to maintain their body shapes. They are gym junkies, carefully watching every crumb that they put in their mouths. I see their skinny jeans getting loose and their collar bones sticking out. Is that the lifestyle I want? And what kind of message is that giving to their daughters? And what about their sons? What message is that sending to their sons about a woman's beauty?
Do I want to be healthy? Yes. Do I want to be hung up on beauty and paranoid about calories all the time? Hell NO! Do I want to be confident? Absoltuely! Do I want to be gorgeous? You know what, I ALREADY AM!! [My husband tells me so and I am choosing to believe him].
This is me!! And from now on I wont be beating myself up. I can still wear beautiful clothes. I don't need to fit a mould that everyone else thinks is normal and/or beautiful. Who gets to decide what beautiful is anyway?
I'm not one of them!! I'm just not! So why should I let them intimidate me?
A lifestyle of workouts and miniscule flavourless meals does not and never will appeal to me. I will always fail at that forever...
A lifestyle of fun, family, friends and food absolutely appeals to me! I am making a choice! Option 2!
I'm not saying that I want to indulge and get fatter. No, no! I am saying that I don't want to be "that" skinny girl. Instead of looking at myself and thinking "fat failure", I am going to look at my life and think, "how blessed am I"!!! And maybe in the whole process, I can teach my children what a positive self image is all about...