Thursday, July 28, 2011

Being a parent.

Do you ever think that if you knew how hard it would be that maybe you wouldn't do it?

Somedays I really feel like I am not cut out for this gig. Today is one of those days.

I love them. A lot.

I just feel like I am doing them a bad service by being their mother.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

How many hands does a woman have???

I was saying to Swift Jim last night that with all that I have on my plate at the moment I feel like a kettle boiling. You know bubbling away, getting hot, almost ready to spill over the edge...

Here is a list of all the things that consume my energy and brain power on a regular basis.
* Connor
* Ella
* Libby
* Being a wife
* Keeping a house in order (or in my case not in order)
* Sewing
* working 4 days a week (and learning how to do the job)
* Womens ministry stuff at church
* Writing a program to do with the "tween" girls at church
* Mum's taxi service (to soccer etc)
* Being a friend
and I am sure I could add 100 more things to that list, but I wont bore you... You get the idea....

My life is jam packed! I am exhausted! Trying to find a happy balance between everything is a real struggle. I am really enjoying my new job and the hours are extremely family friendly. I was juggling everything else ok until I threw 4 days of work into the mix. We need the money so I can't not work. Something has to give!
So, if I take sewing and Womens ministry stuff out of the picture will that lighten the load? I sure hope so.
I still want to sew. Afterall I worked SO hard last year to build FF&F up. But I need to downsize massively!! No more markets. I think I will still take orders in small amounts and occasionally add things to my online shop. But I doubt it will be on regular basis.
It's been hard to make a decision. But I think I am happy(ish) with it.

How do other women manage all their commitments?